The story of how I got leaked.
I'm angry, betrayed and disappointed in humanity
“… and this creator was saying, they don’t even like the thing that they make, the things that they post, they think that it’s negative. But they do it because it gets attention. And it’s paying bills.” (video I took this from is at the bottom of this article)
I thought I would not speak about it. Didn’t want to draw more attention to it. But how much longer should we stay silent and submissive to the abuse? This line that I’ve heard in a YouTube video triggered me to start writing.
A week or two ago one of my fans connected me on Instagram and said that he found my nude pictures on google. I just laughed it off. Said that “welp, I guess I’m a true celebrity now :D everyone gets their nudes leaked, it’s just how it goes”
And I left it like that. What can I do about it?
A week or two later one of my b’A (b’Altic alternative model group that I created) girls sent a screenshot in our chat. In that screenshot I see my pics and my girls pics on Lithuanian Telegram group chat of some local amateur porn site with comments like “who tried these? I’ve heard they’re good in bed”, “can someone post these naked?”, “can someone give me their onlyfans”, “oh you wouldn’t afford them”, “feel like buying them to try (speaks about escort services)?” etc.
And
That.
Got my heart boiling.
Not only because it was lithuanians who did this. Somehow when it’s your home country people it hits different, feels like higher kind of betrayal.
But for several reasons.
How did we normalized getting abused? “Oh, you should’ve known, everyone gets leaked sooner or later”. Everyone I tell about this has a similar reaction. I did too. Then I realized how demeaning it is. It’s typical victim blaming. “Oh you got raped, you asked for it, what were you wearing…” you know?
I feel betrayed. They stole from me. I trusted my fans and followers. Not anymore.
All women on the internet are products. It shocks me how fast men are putting price tags on women. I see it in a FB group where women share messages they get on dating sites. 9 out of 10 are men offering them meeting for a price (500 Eur in real life, 300 Eur for online), nevertheless, escort services starts at 300 Eur PER HOUR, they automatically assume that EVERY woman is a prostitute, they don’t even bother to ask if she is a working girl or not.
On top of that they use it for bullying. If you’re a sex worker, you don’t deserve respect. You are a low life, a thing, not a human being, just an object for them to use. And not only sex workers. I’ve found so many stories on YouTube where girls got their pics leaked and even tried to kill themselves because they were so embarrassed, they had no support, family disowned them. AND FOR WHAT? For some naked pictures? Isn’t it a bit too harsh? Some killers are treated nicer than that…
(video is at the end of this article)There’s not much you can do legally. I found that you can report to Google and ask them to take down those images from the search. They will not take them down from the websites, but they can remove them from the Google search at least. The problem is that I’m not sure if I won’t be the one punished for creating them in the first place. I’ve built that house, it got burned down and I’m the one to blame here.
As long as sex work is not legalized there’s nothing that would protect us. You can’t feel safe.
If you’re wondering why did I create those pics in the first place? Why did I post them? Read the first few lines of this article again.
Solution?
I started to look for solutions, ideas how to deal with this, how to solve it. I emailed those porn sites and said that those images were posted without my consent. No response. How expected.
I told about this to my fellow sex workers and they shared a story of one girl who won the court because the person who leaked her pics demanded money. It’s blackmailing, so her situation was a bit … “easier”. That will not work for me.
Then I found that legal form for Google, I told you about earlier, but.. I’m way too scared to fill that in.
Hire a hacker to deal with this? I can’t afford McDonald’s at this time, how am I supposed to hire a skilled hacker?
Same with “Rulta.com” they claim to be the ultimate protectors, but the more I read their site the more suspish they seem. And pricey - 109 USD per month. I don’t have that.
Then I felt the urge to delete everything, drop the sex work and photoshoots in general. Fuck this… but then I thought… by deleting everything, I move away and give more space for those unwanted pics. They will show up on the top even more. And, besides, I love my work. I enjoy creating photographs. Why some little slip ups should ruin my career?
I need to take that space as much as I possibly can and wash them away, down to the bottom.
So that’s exactly what I’m doing right now. I am literally spamming internet with the pictures that I love and want to be seen. AND IT’S ACTUALLY WORKING. After two days of spamming, I start to notice my pictures on the first page of the search. Downside is that “fapello” (the leaked porn site) noticed and probably understood what I’m doing and they do not approve my pictures anymore. Which is hilarious.
Other similar pages are not allowing to post at all. You have to find their forums and try posting there, with a hope that your pics will end up on the main site.
Reddit also flagged me, because it doesn’t matter what kind of picture it is, it can be a butterfly, but if you tag it “nude”, “leaked” and so on … well it is considered as a big no no there.
So far my best friends are Twitter (or X which sounds like porn page and that’s exactly what I need now :D) and Curvage.
If you know other pages/platforms/forums where I could post my pics and expect them to show up on Google search - please tell me!
Sites like onlyfans, patreon, Sharesome, Fetlife are not ok, because they do not show up on Google search.
Sites like facebook, instagram and other “I wanna be ad friendly” are not ok, because they throw you out and don’t even consider your appeals.
Yes, I intentionally write some of the titles in small letters. It’s not a grammar mistake, just lack of respect.
Surprisingly positive discoveries
I wasn’t going to tell this story out loud. I thought that I don’t want to give this attention at all. If I say this out loud people will start to look it up themselves. Maybe even more leaks will happen.
Then I thought that only complete idiots will do that and they are not worth the air they breathe.
So I shared. I wanted to do something about it. It is not normal that things like this happen. And I received A LOT of positive feedback and support from everywhere. I am stunned. My friends, my followers, people that I know a little, my clients, my day job, that normal job clients supported me. Some of them even helped me in some ways that might turn out into another article called “aftermath”.
I am so lucky to have you.
Thank you guys. THANK YOU.
What I also discovered is the urge to create again. Not just content for money as I lost myself into it, but the art. I started all this journey in 2017 with a notebook full of photoshoot ideas. I was CREATING. Then I drowned into “this pic has no boobs so it won’t sell”. Now I feel that I want to make even more pretty pictures than ever before.
So you can say that this negative shock was a kickstart, a way to wake up.
Just please don’t do anything similar like this again.
So this is the beginning of the war. This thing what just happened made me rethink a lot of things: my price (it’s too low, low enough for the scums to get in), the content I create (I’m not proud of the pics that got out. I made them fast, with low effort, not thinking much about the future how they might look in a different light, it was only for the inner circle, but here we are. Either way, it doesn’t change the fact that it sucks to be robbed like this. What’s the difference if it’s a good pic or a bad pic, it still was STOLEN from me and SOLD by some idiot, not me), people that are around me (the support 🥺), and the most importantly, I realized that quitting was the last option.
I’m already here, out in the field. I’m already known. I have followers and fans. I like what I do, I like creating, and expressing myself with the portraits I make. No way I’m quitting.
What I will do is serve some revenge when it’s ready.
I have ideas how we can change things and help all people who were forced to feel this shit. Email me if you want to join.
modeljennybiatch@gmail.com
The video the first few lines of this article are from:
The video that shocked me the most when I was looking for info online: